Ouch!

Ouch! It hurts! Once again! It is even more hurtful this time because it happens once again.
But, every trial makes a person stronger.
Is that so?
Well, not for me,
for now,
at this moment,
at least.

I didn't make it to graduate. I didn't clear any paper I sat for last sitting either. That's bad!

In this situation, joining the work force is no longer a wise decision because I have 3 outstanding papers. Unless, I choose to postpone my studies. Another suggestion is that to do one paper at a time while working. Wait a minute! May I know which employer would be kind enough to give such a person a shot? Maybe. However, the job scope given wouldn't be the kind of job scope designed for graduate. Looking at my current job, which is temporary, I don't think it is getting me anywhere good. Ironically, I really hope I'm wrong when I say this. Am I too proud when I talk like that?

Next option is going back to class, with the same lecturers, same class jokes, same notes, same exercises, etc... unless, of course, I choose to go for different lecturer this time, which is allowed. The truth is, I don't have any space left in my heart to attend class.

Try another option, self-study. I would have to do it in kl. Malacca is not a good place, the study environment is just not conducive, especially with babies around! My family couldn't agree more with this statement. Self-study in kl means very less friends, no internet access, lesser entertainment due to lack of peers to hang out, etc... Aren't these 'the' criteria to go full force in studies? Come on people, be honest! I admit I feel lonely staying in such an environment.

So, what now? I need to decide fast! Registration for June sitting will be due by mid of next month.

The atmosphere is undeniably negative.

God, please guide!