3/3 F

I promised myself that I will post this blog.

18th of February, the day where all the CAT & ACCA students waited anxiously for the release of result. I opened ACCA website, logged into myACCA, keyed in my registration number and pass code. A few seconds passed. There we go, my result appeared on the screen. 3/3 FAIL !!! Did you get it? All failed! My first ever degree examination and I failed all. What a discouragement! I e-mailed it to my father. Later on, I decided to call. Thinking that he might not have the time to check the mailbox. I wonder what will his expression be. Disappointment? Or can he accept?

True enough! He can! I do not know how he do it. But he can accept this fact.

He said :" Right now, you don't worry about anything, just focus on the current subject. Next sem try again. Study hard ok?"

Speechless me yet able to barely answered an "Ok."

Last December was the examination month. After exam ended, I cried. I knew that I won't make it. It's not that I don't have faith. But how can you expect a pass when you sat for 3 hours and not knowing what to pen down? My father is the one who consoled me.

Feeling guilty? Of course. Feeling sad? Of course. How can a human not felling sad when something bad happened? All human has feelings.

How come failed? Have I been neglecting my time to study? Or I don't understand what am I studying? Or wrong method of studying? Or I just take it lightly? Give me any reason. I don't have the answer.

*getting emo*

Consequences of this failure is wasting of time and money. Extra approx 4k and extra 1/2 year.

*enough of emoness*

There must be a reason for this to happen. God wouldn't favor failing his child, because he loves every single one of them, it hurts to fail his own child. But if failure do happened, he must have his reasons for doing so. Is He disciplining me? Or testing my faith? Can be those reasons. Or He has something for me to learned in that extra half a year time? Can be also. My earthly father still loves me and is still understanding when I failed my exam. All the more will my heavenly Father who loves me until the very end be with me to overcome this challenging time.

*action plan*

Talking about action plan, it is easy to draft it out. But to carry it out? It requires high discipline and commitment. All this while, whenever I am stress-out, I tend to scold people for nothing and started eating like a monster. And I don't realized it when I am doing all this things, releasing tension in a wrong way. My family is my witness. Only when I calm my self down, I come to realize all the foolish act that I've done. Back at home, my family can help in minimizing this from happening. But right now I am not at home. Who will help me? This is the real uni life! Count on God for help, for He is faithful!

Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us,
Ephesians 3:20

*off to battle field*

There will always be ups and downs in life. It is up to us to face it or to hide from it. I choose to face it. Do it again! Open the book, and start studying. Do it with the strength, the wisdom and the help from above. I want to let His glory shine in coming exam!

My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;
Knowing [this], that the trying of your faith worketh patience.
But let patience have [her] perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.
But if any of you lack wisdom, you should pray to God, who will give it to you; because God gives generously and graciously to all.
James 1:2-4

Lil RBS reunion

On the 2nd second of CNY night, a group of young, passionate, energetic and lovely child of God gathered together at one of the popular tourism spot -- Jonker Street, Malacca.

I was worried at first. Will this reunion be a successful one? It involves rbses from two different badges. Namely 2006 and 2008. Can we all blend in as RBS student? And not forgetting transport arrangement. Fail to arrange means fail everything.

Thanks to my father who agreed to fetch us. *woohoo* Off we go!!!

We walked through the crowd. All kind of essence, be it from food stall by the road side as well as homo sapiens ascended to the clear and bright without stars sky.

We pushed ourself through the crowd, looking for cendol+laksa shop. We managed to find it. And so we pushed ourself even harder through the crowd. What we see in the end was a shop that is full of customers. There ain't any empty table but only a long queue of human line.

Mission failed!

We settled down at Limau Limau. A small shop yet its design is comparable to other bigger scale shop. All kind and some weird combination of juices are available here. All healthy drinks! I support! We chat chat chat. Trying to "show off" to the other badge how umph is one badge compare to another. All the life transforming story. The little little thing that is really insignificant. The lessons. The people. The place. The food. The activities. The everything. Good job! Now I really missed the time when I was in RBS! The more we talk, the more that we found out we had actually known a few same person. [ of course la, all from Adam ma...]

The day will end soon. Still crowded! The night is still too young for Malaccan folks and also foreigner. We took pictures before we leave one another again just like what we did during graduation day. -.-"

How do I feel about the whole thing? I am H-A-P-P-Y! Glad that we could catch up with one another.

Until we meet again, take care people!

*for pictures lover, check out this gadiy.blogspot.com the title "Melacca for the New Year Part 3"

February

Busy! Busy! Busy!

No time to update!

I will do it retrospectively.

Dear friends, don't mind ya?

A small town name Bahau.

Never had this kind of chinese new year celebration before.

I made up mind and decided to go to a small town name Bahau, Negeri Sembilan for CNY visiting. I was hesitate at first. Why go so far under the hot sun? Moreover, it is in Negeri Sembilan. The place where I study --> away from home. -.-"

As a brief intro ... ...

Bahau is situated at the border of Negeri Sembilan. My church, chinese meeting, planted a church there a few year ago. It is called Bahau Gospel Hall "ma kou fu ying tang" We normally travel using old road, which will take us about one to one an a half hour.

Programme ... ...

8:30 am Min Lian fetch me and sis to fu keong's house in Taman Asean, Malacca.
9:15 am Kim Fatt fetch us. Off we go!
10:30 am Reach bahau. Meet in church. We are the earliest.
11:15 am Message by Chee Tat, entitle " wu fu lin men "
11:45 am Makan
12:00 pm "Gong Xi Fah Chai, Hong Pau Na Lai." Split into 3 arrears. Each with 2 cars.
1st house--> big house, very comfortable to live in.
2nd house-->wooden house, surrounded by trees, cooling, they were watching cj7.
3rd house-->terrace house, nice soup, own plant vege, great meal.
4th house-->terrace house, homemake fruit drinks, creative hand-made house deco.
5th house-->half wooden and concrete house, nice cookies, all gather in this house,
took picture.
*we are visiting houses of kids attending Sunday School, all non-believer*
5:30 pm Back to Malacca
7:00 pm Reach home. Get ready for family visiting. @.@

At the end of the day, everybody is exhausted! Nevertheless, the tiredness is overshadowed by the feeling of satisfaction and joy for being able to spend time with our spiritual family in this festive season.

The message --> "wu fu lin men" Literally it means 5 different blessings come to your door step. Figuratively it means, think yourself! It is taken from 5 different chapter from the book of Psalms. The popular CNY word - "fu" can be dissected into 3 part. God, Adam and Garden of Eden. Combine it all together, it can be said, in everything that we do, God is always there lending out helping hand. The speaker reminded us to thanked God for all the blessing that we were bless ever since we were still in our mother's womb.

The program looked ordinary. So what? Program is secondary. I do feel a stronger bond between us. It is stronger enough to make the thin wall between us shudder. (read previous post) The conversation, laughter, encouragement and care will I cherish forever. May the good Lord bless you all.