Because, there’s a mess up there.
Messy item 1: It is a sin to leave the office on time.
The punishment for this sin is mental torture. I often leave the office with guilty feeling, as though I have wronged against the company. Seriously, what is the big fuss here? I have finished my work for the day, there is no urgent work required, therefore I balik la… Why linger in the office for nothing? Come on, colleagues! Get a life!
Manager rationalizes the reason of staying back: You need to be seen together with the team. We do not know when the bosses will walk in to our workstation. So, arrange your time to stay back for some days.
Yada….Yada…. If I am the manager, I will encourage my staff to leave if there is nothing urgent. Your quality of work is sufficient to show that you are performing. Forget about staying back to impress your boss.
Messy item 2: Idle fats storage
Noticed weight gain of 1-2kg per year.
5 years x 2 kg = 10 kg = one size up. This is mind boggling!!!!
The main reason for weight increase is stress. Yea, ACCA is no joke. I lost many brain cells but I gain many fat tissues. No thanks! :( I EAT when I am stressed.
Stress is bound to haunt us on our way to success. There is little point in going on a diet if I cannot manage stress. How?
*Not happy in the office today. I ate chocolate.
Messy item 3: A friend name confidence is missing in action.
Where art thou?
I dearly miss thee.
Harken unto the cry of thy beloved, hasten and linger not.
There are 2 main causes that shooed my friend away, lack of knowledge and weight gain.
Messy item 4: Hatred (Sounds se-ri-ous!!)
I have tried to understand. I have forgiven countless time. I have taken steps to make improvement as commented and suggested. I have tried most of the things.
Still, that @#$^&*(^% manager is not satisfied. I JUST DO NOT GET HER.
I have pride problem I must admit and she noticed that because I seldom say ‘sorry’. I took her advice and make it a habit to say sorry, own up my mistake whenever it happens, because ‘sorry’ is a pleasant and magical word. Agree?
But guess what? There was a few times I say ‘sorry’ and her reply was: What ‘sorry?’
Hey woman! You make my ‘sorry’ sounds so cheap when in fact I sincerely apologize. Really don’t get her. Does she really need to push me to dead end?
Level of hatred: I do not want to be physically near her, like having lunch, take photo, only allowed work related conversation.
Unexplained pressure: As long as she is in her room, I feel pressured. Meaning I feel pressured every now and then. I have done nothing wrong but this feeling got stuck with me. *dislike this to the max*
Sigh
This is not the right atmosphere to end the year. Why la like that? Every morning, I ask myself: Why have to go work? :(
In search of solutions from the Almighty One.
