See you soon, my beloved!

14th of March (Friday)
I feel homesick!!! I want go home!!! Oh, there will be a public holiday next thursday!!! Cool!!!

19th of March (Wednesday)
I wanna go home tomorrow!!! Really homesick!!! I've never felt this way before!!!

20th of March (Thursday)
I expect the bus terminal to be packed because today is a public holiday. I am wrong! Not many people are there. I easily got a ticket home. Normally, I will get stuck for at least 2 hours in Seremban bus terminal. But today, I managed to reach home in 2 hours time. I felt overjoy!!! That was the minimum time for traveling I can achieve. I thanked God for the nice and safe trip today. =)

12:30 pm. Welcome me back to my house. Rest. Eat (Mummy cooked special asam laksa maggi mee). Next, eat some more!!! Lots of chocolate in the refrigerator!

Approximately 2:30 pm. A black car stopped outside my house. Don't worry, it was my cousin who fetched my aunty back from hospital la.... My aunty was admitted to ICU few days ago for blood transfusion. I don't think that was all, must be another more serious problem that made my cousin sent my aunty to hospital. I opened the gate. Next the car's door. I saw my aunty, sitting down almost lifelessly, and is very very much thinner than before. I called “Yellow!!!" (yellow=hello) She opened her eyes a lil to look at me. Then closed her eyes again. She was extremely weak! No strength to even walk! The maid carried her out from the car and put her on the wheelchair. Put her on the bed, she slept. Don't even have the strength to talk. How heart breaking am I!!!

21th of March (Friday)
I looked into the room where my aunty always sleeps in. She was not there. I asked mummy " Akor leh?" (Where is anuty?) Mummy answered " Yi ki mak kor eh chu liao" (She went to her sister's house.)I thought I can talk to her since I come back only once in a few weeks. Now I could not.

22nd of March (Saturday)
8.00 am. I have event to attend today. No choice! Have to go back Nilai. I sat in the train, waiting for the train to move, to Nilai. Suddenly, my phone rang.

Papa: " Halo, where are you?"
Me:" In the train, waiting for the train to move. "
Papa:" Sherene, can come back? "
Me, without asking why said:" ok. "
Papa:" You know what happen already ar? "
Me:" Har? I don't know. What happen? "
Papa:" Akor passed away already. "
Me:" HAR? O, OK. "

Stunned. I know this will someday happen, but... I walk out the train. Walk back to bus terminal. Travel to Malacca again. *sad*

11:00 am. Reached Malacca. I called papa. " The bus passed Alor Gajah's way. Will reach bus station in half an hour time. "

11:30 am. Called again. "Papa, I reached bus station already." Papa answered. "We are buying coffin. Can you take a bus to mak kor's house?" I answered "ok." Sky was covered with dark and thick cloud. I felt a lil gloomy. I managed to catch a bus just in time before the bus leave.

12:30 am. I reached my destination after a long journey. Walk into mak kor's house. There is 2 rows of sofa filled with my relatives, they gave me a sad look and they have 'red eyes'! I walk towards the room where my aunty was lying. She is covered with blanket from head to toes. I removed the blanket, to look at her with tears in my heart. A strong feeling of sadness gushed out within me. I hold my tears, telling myself not to cry. My aunty made my sisters and me promise not to cry when she died. Twice, in these 5 years time. She said that is it a temporary departure, we will meet again in heaven, so there is no need to cry.

1:30 pm. Caretakers arrived. They carried my aunty's body to the van with a stretcher. Suddenly, a loud wail can be heard from this house. My aunts and nieces, they can't help it but to cry. My heart was torn into pieces.

I asked another aunt how she dies. She said "As usual, mak kor cleaned her up in the morning. After talking to her for a while, she went to kitchen to stir the porridge. When she returned, akor like that already." I want to thank God that she died peacefully.


24th of March (Monday)
Last and final service start at 1:00 pm. We sang some songs and continued with gospel message by elder Wong. Then, my cousin, Marcus who is my aunty only son gave a speech. As he delivered his most affectionate speech, many relatives began to shed tears. He is a non-Christian. Unbelievably, he said this "I believe that my mom is now with God, where she had puts her faith in the Lord Jesus Christ." A non-Christian saying this? And even saying out the name of our Savior in public? Praise God people!!!

2:30 pm. It was raining cats and dogs when we departed from the rites hall. But our God is again merciful by granting us a fine weather. A lil drizzling though. We sang 2 hymns. The first, "Safe in the arms of Jesus". "Amazing grace" as requested by my cousin. There was a great downpour at the Cheng Christian Cemetery. My grievances overshadowed my voice. I could not sing. My aunty's remains is lowered down to the ground.

3:00 pm. Rush to bus station immediately after the whole thing ended. I cannot afford to miss class for one more day. Emotionally unstable!

Summary (thanks for your patient in reading grandmother story)

God has been good, towards my aunty and during her funeral. He puts everything into place, a perfect plan for everyone. The gospel was being preached for the whole 2 nights of service. I hope the message will sink down deeply in my relatives' heart and mind, and also friends and neighbors who are present.

My aunty has a grandma figure. My sisters and me started sleeping together with her ever since kindergarten till secondary school, where my cousin got married and they moved out. She is the one that consoled us when we got scolded from parents. She is the only close relative of mine who is in the Lord. After this I have less one person on earth that I can actually fall on to. The one that I can tell everything to.

Will miss you akor... ... I know you will be happy and safe in arms of Jesus.

Skeptical

What Sherene Tan Yin Xyn Means

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are incredibly sexy and sensual. You have a naughty vibe that no one can ignore. You have an unquenchable desire. And you are unrestrained in your passions. You have a tendency to be unfaithful. Whether you fight it or give in to it is up to you.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Just for the sake of updating. Do not be carried away by such superstitious thingy. By the way, can anyone tell me what does sherene means?

M & M

What came to your mind when you see M&M?
Chocolate?
But I am not talking about chocolate right now.
It's Milk & Meat.
Haha!

Of whom we have many things to say, and hard to be uttered, seeing ye are dull of hearing. For when for the time ye ought to be teachers, ye have need that one teach you again which [be] the first principles of the oracles of God; and are become such as have need of milk, and not of strong meat. For every one that useth milk [is] unskilful in the word of righteousness: for he is a babe. But strong meat belongeth to them that are of full age, [even] those who by reason of use have their senses exercised to discern both good and evil.
Hebrews 5:11-14

No need to explain the verses right? I believe everyone can understand.

In the past Inti Christian fellowship Camp, a friend of mine who brought a non-c friend to the camp asked her a few things. She couldn't answer, so she looked for me for the answer. And, I couldn't answer as well. It wasn't a too difficult question. But I could not answer! Argh! I have to look for other people to get the answer. And it was not only one question, quite a number of questions! Spread out in two days!

I ... ...
should be teaching, (err I prefer to use the word explaining) instead of being taught about the elementary truth of the Word over again and again.
I ... ...
should be feeding on meat, not milk. For those who feed on milk is still an infant, not acquainted with the Word.
I ... ...
should be constantly trained myself to eat meat, in order to be mature and to distinguish good from evil.

But I never ... ...

The changes I must make?

• Read through notes from sermons and camps.
• Read more Christian books.
• Read more Christian articles.
• Have more Christian conversation.

Milk and meat are in the same level in food pyramid but each of them functions differently.



milk = infant
meat = mature


Can I say this as a conclusion?