The intensity of restlessness is arising...
Besieged by the fact,
that I have to cut down my time with friends, activities, computer,
in order to get a pass in exam.
Saddened by the isolated life,
that I'm about to travel on,
to get a pass in exam.
I get emo easily nowadays......
Overcoming my unbeliefs,
by faith.
Motivate myself,
by knowing that Jesus is running this race with me.
I need to get rid of this 4 papers by this sitting!!!
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Monday, August 18, 2008
3 or 4 ???
Here comes result from the second sitting of ACCA.
One passed! Two down!
Well, I'm still at peace. It could be because I've expected it to be this way.
So, you see? It is not that I was being pessimistic but prudent!
Prudent is one of the accounting concept, which means making the best possible judgment.
Ever since the examination ended in June, I have actually been thinking about it.
Things like how many paper to enroll next semester, what if this paper fail, what subject should I drop and what should remain, etc.
I guess somehow you know it yourselves of your performance in exam, provided you are honest enough with yourselves. However, this is not always the case as there might be some other factor.
So, my plan is to do 4 papers. I have been praying about this matter over the last 2 weeks. There are still no clear answer/direction. Exam fees will only need to be submitted next month.
Let us compare the pros and cons of taking 3 and 4 papers.
3 papers
Pros:-
-Less stress, less hectic.
-Have more time for lots of things.
Cons:-
-It would be my second times attempting this papers and thus it is a waste of time for me to push forward one papers.
-De-motivated. Listening to the same lecture all over again.
4 papers
Pros:-
-The mentality of " When you know that you don't have enough time, you won't waste too much time on unnecessary activities."
-As all 4 papers are my second attempts, it will take a shorter time for revision and have time to go through one more round.
Cons:-
-Extra load of stress. Not many people will do 4 papers in one go.
-A seriously serious study timetable and attitude is needed.
( Nerd? )
Both have their pros and cons.
So? How?
The answer is,
-To be confirmed-
One passed! Two down!
Well, I'm still at peace. It could be because I've expected it to be this way.
So, you see? It is not that I was being pessimistic but prudent!
Prudent is one of the accounting concept, which means making the best possible judgment.
Ever since the examination ended in June, I have actually been thinking about it.
Things like how many paper to enroll next semester, what if this paper fail, what subject should I drop and what should remain, etc.
I guess somehow you know it yourselves of your performance in exam, provided you are honest enough with yourselves. However, this is not always the case as there might be some other factor.
So, my plan is to do 4 papers. I have been praying about this matter over the last 2 weeks. There are still no clear answer/direction. Exam fees will only need to be submitted next month.
Let us compare the pros and cons of taking 3 and 4 papers.
3 papers
Pros:-
-Less stress, less hectic.
-Have more time for lots of things.
Cons:-
-It would be my second times attempting this papers and thus it is a waste of time for me to push forward one papers.
-De-motivated. Listening to the same lecture all over again.
4 papers
Pros:-
-The mentality of " When you know that you don't have enough time, you won't waste too much time on unnecessary activities."
-As all 4 papers are my second attempts, it will take a shorter time for revision and have time to go through one more round.
Cons:-
-Extra load of stress. Not many people will do 4 papers in one go.
-A seriously serious study timetable and attitude is needed.
( Nerd? )
Both have their pros and cons.
So? How?
The answer is,
-To be confirmed-
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
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Take a kit-kat, take a break!
Overly active thinking mind will make you go cuckoo!
Monday, August 4, 2008
Downcast
My name appears in mgcboleh.blogspot.com. Thanks hwei for remembering. Yes, hwei. I miss you too! I remembered such reunion that I've attend was during chinese new year time, where it was drizzling and we share the warmness of each other in McDonald, Jaya Jusco, Melaka. That is all! Once only. I've missed so many opportunity of meeting up with this group of people. I hope I do not feel stress this time meeting up with this group of people. I do not know what caused me to stress. I remembered last time I felt the stress of not meeting up for long time. Then came geng yi to help me to de-stress by asking me why am I looking so stress. Such one simple question is enough to blow off my stress spirit. =)
Lots of things are bothering me recently. I must admit that I am disturb by all this. God seems to be silent. Or am I the one that is not silent enough before Him? Or is it just excuses? Where is my faith? My childlike faith that God desires. What causes my faith to fade and ebb away? I am still clinging on to Him though. I have not gave up on God yet. I hope I'll never. Painful experiences and disappointments in life somehow seems to pull me back instead of going forward. Life gets tougher but I am not toughen up.
Okie. Result will be out in 14 days time. Again, unless miraculous happens. Or else...... ( I am not the kind of person that longs for miraculous sign, don't worry people. )*sigh*
I need divine motivation and passion! For simple thing like going to class for second time for the same subject throughout this semester! Going through the same thing all over again ain't an enjoyable thing. I admit that I do not know how to help myself anymore in this area. Everyday I would just pull myself out of the bed for class. At times, I just couldn't pull myself up. God, help!
*I attended passion KL 2008. That doesn't mean I can be passionate overnight. Or revival happen overnight. Over one concert.*
What about dad's job? No job = no money.
Mom salvation? Will she ever comes into the kingdom of God?
My area of service? I do not want to serve blindly. I want to serve productively. But so far it seems to be ok.
I guess this post would be counted as the downcast of the author. This author needs to learn to live by faith, more faith, much faith and a lot a lot of faith from the ever faithful God.
Lots of things are bothering me recently. I must admit that I am disturb by all this. God seems to be silent. Or am I the one that is not silent enough before Him? Or is it just excuses? Where is my faith? My childlike faith that God desires. What causes my faith to fade and ebb away? I am still clinging on to Him though. I have not gave up on God yet. I hope I'll never. Painful experiences and disappointments in life somehow seems to pull me back instead of going forward. Life gets tougher but I am not toughen up.
Okie. Result will be out in 14 days time. Again, unless miraculous happens. Or else...... ( I am not the kind of person that longs for miraculous sign, don't worry people. )*sigh*
I need divine motivation and passion! For simple thing like going to class for second time for the same subject throughout this semester! Going through the same thing all over again ain't an enjoyable thing. I admit that I do not know how to help myself anymore in this area. Everyday I would just pull myself out of the bed for class. At times, I just couldn't pull myself up. God, help!
*I attended passion KL 2008. That doesn't mean I can be passionate overnight. Or revival happen overnight. Over one concert.*
What about dad's job? No job = no money.
Mom salvation? Will she ever comes into the kingdom of God?
My area of service? I do not want to serve blindly. I want to serve productively. But so far it seems to be ok.
I guess this post would be counted as the downcast of the author. This author needs to learn to live by faith, more faith, much faith and a lot a lot of faith from the ever faithful God.
Monday, July 21, 2008
Through the sun and rain
Past week has been a ....... one.
Sunday: All seats taken up in church. One family and lots of JPA student from Kolej Teknologi Timur joined us in breaking of bread. And the topic was Assembly and church practice for the hole month of July. The sub-topic was headship and head covering. Fantastic! All praise goes to God. It is a commandment not conviction! And Cog again prove me right and need no more doubt on this matter. A grounded knowledge based speaker, Mr. Chew Eng Huat. I managed to catch him to clarify other issue as well. Then we proceed from there to Dengkil to have farewell lunch. Han fei, a friendly and humble China student will leave us and start his career life. God bless! As soon as I reached my room, I felt exhausted. I was so tempted to my 'bed of roses' but if i do that right after heavy lunch, the consequences is.... So I chat with a friend of my in other land on msn. I had a fruitful and edifying chat with him on msn for the whole of last week. I almost fell asleep at 6 pm where my cg member asked our group out for dinner. There we go, care group dinner. I thanked God for the another fruitful conversation that we managed to have together and encourage one another to be a student of God's word. The time showed 8:25 pm. I have 'Futsal for all' committee meeting at 8:30 pm. So off my cg leader with me to this meeting. This event was not organized by CF but the uni. Immediately after the wu liao meeting has ended, I get back to my room. I was dead tired! When I've finished cleaning up and was about to walk out the toilet. My neighbor who are staying opposite if my room came to stopped me to asked me to teach her some financial homework! Gosh! I have not wash my clothe ans it was 1 am. The FOC tuition ended at 1:45 am. Argh! My eyes could o longer take it anymore! I rushed to pantry area to do my laundry. Finally I fell into a deep deep sleep at 2 am. I have 8 am class everyday!!!
Monday: Classes went on as normal. It was raining so no captain ball. I worked on the video presentation that is supposed to be presented on last day of CF meeting which is 2 weeks away for this period. With my cacat-ed knowledge and newbie in doing such presentation, I finish 80% of it at 1:45 am. My eyes!!!! Sleep~~~~
Tuesday: I missed 8 am class today! My eyes! My body! My brain! Man! 8 am! Guilty! So I turned emo. I flipped the Bible and devotional material. Job 3:26 --> I have no peace, no quietness. I have no rest, but only turmoil. I read and prayed with only a little sunlight that shone in. I asked God to preserve me and to lift me up. So I went off to the next class. I met up with 2 of CF members to discuss further about CF meeting for final week of CF meeting at 6 pm. Thanked God they were helpful people. After bathe time and dinner, I continued with the remaining 20%. Then, a mechanical engineering friend of my ask me a favor to help him in his project-business plan. I agree to help after knowing that I am only required to fill in the figure for the given not fully financial statement. I estimated that i would only need one hour to complete it. When I was about to start doing it, my hand phone message tone alerted me. It was a message from futsal's advisor asking the committee to meet at 10 pm for an emergency meeting. What? Ok, then. I went over wanting to finish up fast. It was just numbering the tag and final instructions for tomorrow. However, the time showed 11.30 pm. No way! I requested to leave. I suddenly came into an 100 meters track and ran as fast as I could to my room. I started filling up the figure in the statement at 11.40 pm or so. I was working hard on it until I realized that I have actually underestimated the time that I need to finish it. I was not sure about certain stuff and so does him. In the end, he said that there is not much time and just do whatever that seems correct. That was the weirdest cash flow that I have ever done in my entire life. After sending over the file to him, some inside thought came to me, ' are you sure you are helping him or killing him?' I stumbled at this thought. Well, I was really tired to even think of the solution. I fell into pig sleep the next moment at 4 am! Nevertheless, I have been given the 'heroine' title after that day. =)
Wednesday: 8 am! Class! Only my physical self was there. I catched up with my sleep whenever there is a break. It was 5 pm. All committee members are supposed to meet there and it ended up 80% of the committee flied kites! I would said that at the beginning the whole thing was at mess. Task was not being delegates well and the event was delayed for 1 hour. I went off to CF half way through it since there was nothing much for me to be done. Continue to be a dummy ? Neh, I'd rather go get spiritual food. How nice to take off and go to CF. I've been blessed during the meeting. After that, I went back to my duty side with a joyful heart. Dinner time! We tabao-ed burger for dinner at 11 pm. Everyone is tired now except for the players. The climax of the tournament was not the match itself but the sudden appearance of officer. She claimed that procedure wasn't properly carried out. Without light, there would be darkness. That was what happening. She gave us time limit up to 12 am. So whether we managed to finish or not, the light will be turn off. And we didn't manage to. Good thing the players were fine with it. Clean up. Reached my room at 1:++. Clean myself up. Sleep~~~
Thursday: I missed 8 am class! Again! NO WAY! This is the last time. I am surrounded by clouds of guiltiness. FFA is still on. But I am only coming in during closing ceremony. We agreed yesterday that those who did not turn up will be on duty today. So I went off to prayer meeting. Later on, 2 of my buddies came along during prayer meeting. They 'skip' for a while as prayer meeting is more edifying rather than sitting by the futsal court and doing nothing. I made new friends. JPA student. Girl. How I wish I am as young as them. Everybody pampers them. Finally, the time come and I have to keep my promise on attending the closing ceremony. I thanked God that today ended early. Miraculously before 12 am! Sleep~~~
Friday: I feel so drain out. I was quiet during cg time, not much contribution from me. I am going home today. The only motivation that keeps my eyes barely open was to get on the bus and sleep. A good Samaritan offered to give me a lift to KTM station. Hmmm.... Not really a lift actually, because they stop by to eat cendol beside KTM. I bid farewell. Here I come terminal 1 ( bus station )at 4.20 pm! I went to transnational counter as usual and I saw the word 'HABIS'. No more ticket for today! I went to look for second company. Same! Oh, man! How to go home? No ticket at all! I felt disappointed and decided to go back inti and come back again tomorrow. Just in time, I heard a guy shouted 'MELAKA! MELAKA! MELAKA!' It's melaka, not merdeka! He said there is spare bus. However, the price is 2 times more expensive than usual! It leaves me no choice expect to pay for that price. The bus will only depart at 6 pm. Where else to go? It is none other than terminal 1 shopping mall. I plan to buy newspaper and find a place to sit. The 'joker' made me walk around the mall and find nothing. I gave up! I went to McDonald to rest and bought an apple pie. Then, sms some friends to kill time and bored-ness. When the time is 5.30 pm, I walk back to the station where I saw my roomie at the entrance. I was so happy that I met someone. The bus came at 6.25 pm, Malaysian timing. Double decker though. 1st time. I was surrounded by men in the bus, as in my sit number. Who cares? I am now dead tired. Sleep~~~ Yahoo!!! Malacca! I have trouble in buying ticket back to seremban now. 90% of the ticket were all sold out. People nowadays rely on public transport? Oil price is the cause? Managed to bought it in the end. Satay celup! Go! Go! GO! Family dinner. I break my own record by eating 18 sticks of satay celup. =) I went back home with a happy mood where my father asked: 'Who wants to eat durian?' I eat some more, at 11 pm. My day ended at 1.30 pm. It has been a long day!
Saturday: Basically I talked the whole day. I decided to go to YP. Since I never attended it for quite sometime. I feel church once again. Still continue talking. Saturday is always a family day. We went to Mahkota Parede to shop for high heels and my father suddenly said: 'You see? Last time I asked you to jump and you don't want to listen. Now have to wear high heel.' I -.-'. I bought a 3 inches high heels and i became from the shortest in my family to the tallest for a few minutes. 50%. One our way back home, it was supper jammed!
Sunday: Never go church today. A few family went to my dearly aunt graveyard to 'put flower'. No emo emo through out the whole thing. We continued by having branch, food was always nice. I went back with sis at 12.30 pm. Here it goes, a new week start and many challenges is awaiting as well.
Despite of everything, I am thankful and grateful that God loves me! =)
* pls ignore all the silly grammar mistake. too long to check through again.
Sunday: All seats taken up in church. One family and lots of JPA student from Kolej Teknologi Timur joined us in breaking of bread. And the topic was Assembly and church practice for the hole month of July. The sub-topic was headship and head covering. Fantastic! All praise goes to God. It is a commandment not conviction! And Cog again prove me right and need no more doubt on this matter. A grounded knowledge based speaker, Mr. Chew Eng Huat. I managed to catch him to clarify other issue as well. Then we proceed from there to Dengkil to have farewell lunch. Han fei, a friendly and humble China student will leave us and start his career life. God bless! As soon as I reached my room, I felt exhausted. I was so tempted to my 'bed of roses' but if i do that right after heavy lunch, the consequences is.... So I chat with a friend of my in other land on msn. I had a fruitful and edifying chat with him on msn for the whole of last week. I almost fell asleep at 6 pm where my cg member asked our group out for dinner. There we go, care group dinner. I thanked God for the another fruitful conversation that we managed to have together and encourage one another to be a student of God's word. The time showed 8:25 pm. I have 'Futsal for all' committee meeting at 8:30 pm. So off my cg leader with me to this meeting. This event was not organized by CF but the uni. Immediately after the wu liao meeting has ended, I get back to my room. I was dead tired! When I've finished cleaning up and was about to walk out the toilet. My neighbor who are staying opposite if my room came to stopped me to asked me to teach her some financial homework! Gosh! I have not wash my clothe ans it was 1 am. The FOC tuition ended at 1:45 am. Argh! My eyes could o longer take it anymore! I rushed to pantry area to do my laundry. Finally I fell into a deep deep sleep at 2 am. I have 8 am class everyday!!!
Monday: Classes went on as normal. It was raining so no captain ball. I worked on the video presentation that is supposed to be presented on last day of CF meeting which is 2 weeks away for this period. With my cacat-ed knowledge and newbie in doing such presentation, I finish 80% of it at 1:45 am. My eyes!!!! Sleep~~~~
Tuesday: I missed 8 am class today! My eyes! My body! My brain! Man! 8 am! Guilty! So I turned emo. I flipped the Bible and devotional material. Job 3:26 --> I have no peace, no quietness. I have no rest, but only turmoil. I read and prayed with only a little sunlight that shone in. I asked God to preserve me and to lift me up. So I went off to the next class. I met up with 2 of CF members to discuss further about CF meeting for final week of CF meeting at 6 pm. Thanked God they were helpful people. After bathe time and dinner, I continued with the remaining 20%. Then, a mechanical engineering friend of my ask me a favor to help him in his project-business plan. I agree to help after knowing that I am only required to fill in the figure for the given not fully financial statement. I estimated that i would only need one hour to complete it. When I was about to start doing it, my hand phone message tone alerted me. It was a message from futsal's advisor asking the committee to meet at 10 pm for an emergency meeting. What? Ok, then. I went over wanting to finish up fast. It was just numbering the tag and final instructions for tomorrow. However, the time showed 11.30 pm. No way! I requested to leave. I suddenly came into an 100 meters track and ran as fast as I could to my room. I started filling up the figure in the statement at 11.40 pm or so. I was working hard on it until I realized that I have actually underestimated the time that I need to finish it. I was not sure about certain stuff and so does him. In the end, he said that there is not much time and just do whatever that seems correct. That was the weirdest cash flow that I have ever done in my entire life. After sending over the file to him, some inside thought came to me, ' are you sure you are helping him or killing him?' I stumbled at this thought. Well, I was really tired to even think of the solution. I fell into pig sleep the next moment at 4 am! Nevertheless, I have been given the 'heroine' title after that day. =)
Wednesday: 8 am! Class! Only my physical self was there. I catched up with my sleep whenever there is a break. It was 5 pm. All committee members are supposed to meet there and it ended up 80% of the committee flied kites! I would said that at the beginning the whole thing was at mess. Task was not being delegates well and the event was delayed for 1 hour. I went off to CF half way through it since there was nothing much for me to be done. Continue to be a dummy ? Neh, I'd rather go get spiritual food. How nice to take off and go to CF. I've been blessed during the meeting. After that, I went back to my duty side with a joyful heart. Dinner time! We tabao-ed burger for dinner at 11 pm. Everyone is tired now except for the players. The climax of the tournament was not the match itself but the sudden appearance of officer. She claimed that procedure wasn't properly carried out. Without light, there would be darkness. That was what happening. She gave us time limit up to 12 am. So whether we managed to finish or not, the light will be turn off. And we didn't manage to. Good thing the players were fine with it. Clean up. Reached my room at 1:++. Clean myself up. Sleep~~~
Thursday: I missed 8 am class! Again! NO WAY! This is the last time. I am surrounded by clouds of guiltiness. FFA is still on. But I am only coming in during closing ceremony. We agreed yesterday that those who did not turn up will be on duty today. So I went off to prayer meeting. Later on, 2 of my buddies came along during prayer meeting. They 'skip' for a while as prayer meeting is more edifying rather than sitting by the futsal court and doing nothing. I made new friends. JPA student. Girl. How I wish I am as young as them. Everybody pampers them. Finally, the time come and I have to keep my promise on attending the closing ceremony. I thanked God that today ended early. Miraculously before 12 am! Sleep~~~
Friday: I feel so drain out. I was quiet during cg time, not much contribution from me. I am going home today. The only motivation that keeps my eyes barely open was to get on the bus and sleep. A good Samaritan offered to give me a lift to KTM station. Hmmm.... Not really a lift actually, because they stop by to eat cendol beside KTM. I bid farewell. Here I come terminal 1 ( bus station )at 4.20 pm! I went to transnational counter as usual and I saw the word 'HABIS'. No more ticket for today! I went to look for second company. Same! Oh, man! How to go home? No ticket at all! I felt disappointed and decided to go back inti and come back again tomorrow. Just in time, I heard a guy shouted 'MELAKA! MELAKA! MELAKA!' It's melaka, not merdeka! He said there is spare bus. However, the price is 2 times more expensive than usual! It leaves me no choice expect to pay for that price. The bus will only depart at 6 pm. Where else to go? It is none other than terminal 1 shopping mall. I plan to buy newspaper and find a place to sit. The 'joker' made me walk around the mall and find nothing. I gave up! I went to McDonald to rest and bought an apple pie. Then, sms some friends to kill time and bored-ness. When the time is 5.30 pm, I walk back to the station where I saw my roomie at the entrance. I was so happy that I met someone. The bus came at 6.25 pm, Malaysian timing. Double decker though. 1st time. I was surrounded by men in the bus, as in my sit number. Who cares? I am now dead tired. Sleep~~~ Yahoo!!! Malacca! I have trouble in buying ticket back to seremban now. 90% of the ticket were all sold out. People nowadays rely on public transport? Oil price is the cause? Managed to bought it in the end. Satay celup! Go! Go! GO! Family dinner. I break my own record by eating 18 sticks of satay celup. =) I went back home with a happy mood where my father asked: 'Who wants to eat durian?' I eat some more, at 11 pm. My day ended at 1.30 pm. It has been a long day!
Saturday: Basically I talked the whole day. I decided to go to YP. Since I never attended it for quite sometime. I feel church once again. Still continue talking. Saturday is always a family day. We went to Mahkota Parede to shop for high heels and my father suddenly said: 'You see? Last time I asked you to jump and you don't want to listen. Now have to wear high heel.' I -.-'. I bought a 3 inches high heels and i became from the shortest in my family to the tallest for a few minutes. 50%. One our way back home, it was supper jammed!
Sunday: Never go church today. A few family went to my dearly aunt graveyard to 'put flower'. No emo emo through out the whole thing. We continued by having branch, food was always nice. I went back with sis at 12.30 pm. Here it goes, a new week start and many challenges is awaiting as well.
Despite of everything, I am thankful and grateful that God loves me! =)
* pls ignore all the silly grammar mistake. too long to check through again.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
June ( can't think of any suitable title )
"Another semester has gone and I achieved nothing in my studies." That was the thought that crossed my mind. Exam did not go well.
How come? I don't know how to put it into word. And I am speechless when I thought of it.
After exam, the next few days of devotion was one filled with tears. The Word of God was indeed comforting, relieving and alive. Praise God!
Hebrews 4:12
For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to diving soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.
There are a few verses that God has showed specially for me and me only. Most of them are from the book of Hebrews, the book where I used to favor less than other books. Now, it has become a book of encouragement which can lift me up again and restore to God.
This particular verse strike me the most,
Jeremiah 12:5a
" If you have run with the footmen, and they have wearied you, then how can you contend with horses?"
So far, I have been dealing with minor issues ( running ), how will I handle it when the really tough stuff comes ( contending with horses )?
True. There are many years ahead of me where uncertainty is the fundamental issue. The upcoming issue may be one where my faith is required even more.
I may asked God to remove this from me. But His answer may be "Toughen up. Dig in. It may get worse."
I thanked God for giving me this precious word. And also a few repeating sermons and verses, sketch, my care group members, church members and friends to cheer me up.
I just hope that I wouldn't lose heart and fall into apostasy. That would be a terrible episode in my life. A really deep wounded scars in God's heart.
He giveth more grace when the burdens grow greater,
He sendeth more strength when the labor increase;
To added affliction He addeth His mercy,
To multiplied trials, His multiplied peace.
How come? I don't know how to put it into word. And I am speechless when I thought of it.
After exam, the next few days of devotion was one filled with tears. The Word of God was indeed comforting, relieving and alive. Praise God!
Hebrews 4:12
For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to diving soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.
There are a few verses that God has showed specially for me and me only. Most of them are from the book of Hebrews, the book where I used to favor less than other books. Now, it has become a book of encouragement which can lift me up again and restore to God.
This particular verse strike me the most,
Jeremiah 12:5a
" If you have run with the footmen, and they have wearied you, then how can you contend with horses?"
So far, I have been dealing with minor issues ( running ), how will I handle it when the really tough stuff comes ( contending with horses )?
True. There are many years ahead of me where uncertainty is the fundamental issue. The upcoming issue may be one where my faith is required even more.
I may asked God to remove this from me. But His answer may be "Toughen up. Dig in. It may get worse."
I thanked God for giving me this precious word. And also a few repeating sermons and verses, sketch, my care group members, church members and friends to cheer me up.
I just hope that I wouldn't lose heart and fall into apostasy. That would be a terrible episode in my life. A really deep wounded scars in God's heart.
He giveth more grace when the burdens grow greater,
He sendeth more strength when the labor increase;
To added affliction He addeth His mercy,
To multiplied trials, His multiplied peace.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Ever X-acerbate Annoying Man
No updates. Whose fault? Not me of course! It's Ever X-acerbate Annoying Man (EXAM) punya fault!!!
At the initial stage of my revision period, the question that crossed my mind many times, " I've studied. How come can fail, last sem? If this sem, after putting so much of effort and fail again, how? "
Nope. That was just the word of the devil, who is trying very hard to shatter my faith. "Shoo!" I said. "Move it move it move it!" I encouraged myself.
So, the preparation for this war began. This is the 3rd month of day and night spending horrendous yet satisfying moments with my ever thick textbooks, revision kit, notes and past year questions.
Faith.
Having faith doesn't just mean hoping the very best from God, it is also included accepting the not so preferable part and still trust that everything is under His control.
This time round, I will have faith in thee, O God. I leave it unto thy hands. May all the uncertainty is made clear through this exam. ( too personal to type it here about that uncertainty )
Ok, off to study.
At the initial stage of my revision period, the question that crossed my mind many times, " I've studied. How come can fail, last sem? If this sem, after putting so much of effort and fail again, how? "
Nope. That was just the word of the devil, who is trying very hard to shatter my faith. "Shoo!" I said. "Move it move it move it!" I encouraged myself.
So, the preparation for this war began. This is the 3rd month of day and night spending horrendous yet satisfying moments with my ever thick textbooks, revision kit, notes and past year questions.
Faith.
Having faith doesn't just mean hoping the very best from God, it is also included accepting the not so preferable part and still trust that everything is under His control.
This time round, I will have faith in thee, O God. I leave it unto thy hands. May all the uncertainty is made clear through this exam. ( too personal to type it here about that uncertainty )
Ok, off to study.
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