The playlist

I was caught singing the old song again moments ago. Some familiar songs of uncertainty from the playlist started playing itself in my mind as if someone click on the 'play' button.

@#%&*^$!!!
Result is out soon!!!
T.T
There are countless of butterflies in my stomach!!!

With a snap of the fingers, somebody click on the 'next' button and a song of comfort is being played.

The lyrics goes like this,

He will keep you strong to the end, so that you will be blameless on the day of our Lord Jesus Christ.
God, who has called you into fellowship with his Son Jesus Christ our Lord, is faithful.
1 Corinthians 1:8-9

Yeap, He is faithful at all times.

Chill sherene! Chill! And be patient!

God's promises are like the stars;
the darker the night the brighter they shine.

-David Nicholas-

:) :) :)

The silent scream

I finally succumbed to write this. Sometimes I despise myself for grumblings.

Matters of concern:

Settling down in a church.
I can list down things I'm looking for in choosing a church to attend. I've even consulted a few closer adults, friends and family regarding this. But ultimately, what is in the Father's heart? Anyway, I've only visited one church so far and I know I have to give myself an appropriate time frame to look around.

Studies.
Haunted by the past and is doubtful of the future.

Bridging the gap of relationship between classmates, housemates and other people.
I... ... ahem am shy to take the initiative to talk to housemates. Probably because they are guys and I'm going to see them for approx 10 hours a day. For classmates, I'm a newbie though not so new, trying to join them. They are already a gang.

Time management.
I think I'm too free till mid of next month. I clean and clean and clean the house until it is sparkling shimmering shinning. Ok, I'm done with cleaning and is satisfied. I revise every lesson in class. I read the Bible and christian book as well. I surf the net everyday without failing. I even went out with my secondary school friends. Still, there are extra time. How should I spent it? Work part time? If yes, where, who, which, what, how? I'm new here and still an acquaintance to the surrounding areas. Is this a season for me to relax? Suddenly, I find the book of Ecclesiastes speaks so well on meaningless life. Everything is meaningless!

I put on weight previously and if I put on another 2 kilos or so, I'll be over weight. Do you believe it?
I plan to take the stairs up to 14th floor where I'm staying but it is not safe to do that. So, I swim! 3 to 5 times a week and at least half an hour each time. However, I'm having dinner with dad everyday. Food. Who doesn't loves food? Dad is a must-eat-to-the-fullest kind of person. Oh man! Oh man! Oh man! It is not a blessing to me anymore. Go and feed your other daughters la.

All the above matters of concern are not a standalone matter. It is a mixture that mixers everything unevenly. Hence, it causes complications when come to finding a solution.

Sighhhh! If you are reading this, would you please pray for me? I'll appreciate that. :)

The whole things sounded rather melancholy. :(

Loving the unloving

I got back from Kuala Lumpur Hospital around 10:30 pm. I am fine here. I did not get admitted into hospital. :) I visited my dad's friend. A secondary school classmate to be exact. However, I waited outside neurology unit the whole time because visitng time was over and the security guard is particular about visitors coming in. And so I did not manage to visit my dad's friend.

I choose to follow dad after dinner though I do not know who is that because I have nothing better to do. >< Yea, a boring Monday night. On our way there, dad said that 2 hours ago, some of his brain vessels burst. Vessels keep on bursting! His condition has gone from bad to worst. The chances of him staying alive is less than 50%. Stroke kills! The following few lines get me thinking. According to dad, he is an arrogant, hypocrite, boastful and envious rich kid who somehow couldn't mix with other classmate from their school days until now. He doesn't know how to socialize and he segregates science and art class students. Despite of that, dad and 2 more friends still went on and visited him at his death bed.

Could such thing ever happen? Yes, it happened!

It is easy to love those who loves you but it is hard when you have to love someone who gets on your nerves every now and then. But behold! I've got the love of God in me! :) And am grateful for that. God loves me when I was so unworthy to be loved because of the sinful nature in me. He enables me to love in an extraordinary way, more than I can ever imagine through the finished work of the Lord Jesus on the cross. An examplary example of love has been set for all.

May the love of God flow through me.

Nilai

After much procrastination, this post is finally here.

Credits to Nilai folks.

Sunday, 7th June 2009

Representative from Kolej Teknologi Timur (KTT). lol
JPA scholar.
The soon to be Dr. Jene

Aunty Ann

The Teh sister, Yee Peng and Yee Shan.

Shaun, Darius and Jason.
Two can read and write Chinese and one cannot. I'm referring to those guys.
Sorry guys. :D

It was my last Sunday in church but most of the people was not around due to other things to attend to. :( Nevermind. We have some here. :)

Monday, 8th June 2009

Farewell dinner with church members.

From top left: Un Andrew, Ally, Aunty Pat and Arnold
From bottom left: me, Belinda, Cheryl and Theodore

I attended Nilai Gospel Chapel for Sunday service as well as other meetings. I thanked them for their warmness and cares they have showered on me. Enjoyed the 'meaty' sermons as well because it was a practical and challenging one. I must say that I enjoyed home-cooked food. Arrr....simply delicious. Thank you for sharing your life with me! Stay faithful!

Wednesday, 10th June 2009

Madonna the not a singer but an iban. XD

Eden, press on!

Jia Lerd ( Chairperson for this term )

Stanley ( have fun with paper work! )

Chris Abner from Georgia, US but currently staying in Nilai.

Speaker for today.

Daniel and Jonathan the 2 old good friends.
I'm so obsessed with this pose. XD

Let me explain. I joined Inti Christian Fellowship throughout my studies life in inti. There are of course a lot more funky and crazy and serious pictures. All the above are in this post because those are the only group of people I maneged to take picture with. I've seen, learned much from you all. Keep up the good work! And thank you for everything!

Hold on. Will upload more group pic.

For the next few pics, we shall call it 'wedding photo album shooting'.

I'm still straight! She is/was my roommate, classmate and coursemate. :)

Thursday, 11th June 2009

Hun Chee's Honeydew sherbet sth like that

My Mango sherbet and black glutinous rice with coconut milk canggih name!

D&D salesgirls XD

I had a few hours outing with hun chee in sunway pyramid. Time is a constraint for us. Sigh. But I treasure the short time we spent together. I am comfortable hanging out with her. We have almost the same wave length I would say and she is nice to be with. :) All the best in your work yea? Move it! Move it!

Charis and me. Both in a mess! Bad shot... :(
Who cares anyway? lol

Friday, 12th June 2009

Evelyn and me
Time is too short for us to get to know each other better. Sigh.

Nasi Kandar never failed me. :)

After care group meeting, we went for NASI KANDAR! Yay!

My first late night movie experience. Muahahaha!!!
13 of us in 2 cars. O.o

We waited for half an hour for everyone to arrive. Grrr....

With Evelyn

To keep ourselves occupied on the way to our destination. :D
Destination: Jusco, Seremban 2.

My first mirror shot in the toilet. Thanks to Jia Lerd.
From left: Jia Lerd, Madonna, me and Karyn.
All JPA scholar. O.O

We watched terminator salvation. Not that one.

This will most probably be my only campus life. I am grateful that I had a chance to experience campus life. Thank you, God, for putting me in Nilai. :)

A Durian Life

I opened a durian yesterday! My first ever experience and I feel so proud of myself actually! :) It is not easy to open a durian if you are un-skilled and inexperience like me. Nevertheless, many first times will inevitably come in life, right? And when it comes, seize it! Life is short, savor every moment.

Such a simple event in life can relate to my journey with God. Read on...

After dinner, I saw my mom opened a durian without much sweats. So, I decided to give it a try. When I asked her where to start cutting, she answered by saying she have no idea and just follow the line. Line? Yea, you can find some lines, it is quite symmetrical. My mom doesn't know the proper way to do it but she did it anyway. *claps! It's my turn now! Jeng, jeng, jeng! So, me too followed my mom advise by cutting along the line. I cut it but there was not enough space for me to put my fingers in to open the durian. I ended up cutting and chopping the durian into a circle. Mom came over to help me to open the durian but to no avail! Stubborn durian!!! And now you know what? The unleashing of durian slaughterer--> me! I started to chop like crazy! Chop and chop and chop and finally it broke into half. Then, mom said: " Not ripe la, no wonder so hard to open." I went =.=lll I spent 15 minutes on this durian with my sweat gland got activated!!! Sweat as in literally sweat. And all I get is nothing!!! Yes, sometime life is so unfair! Grrr...

I never gave up! Nope, not that easy! I decided to try another one. Before that, I must say that my palm and fingers got cut by those thorny thorns due to the complications explained above. So what? Wipe away the blood and bring another durian here! I must open a durian by hook or by crook! Hmph! Again, find the line, cut and open it. Yea, it succeeded. Bring out the flesh. Then press down all the way to get the rest of the flesh. Everything is completed in less then 5 minutes times. Hahaha!

I felt the satisfaction, though my hands hurt. Soon the hurt fade away because the fragrance, richness and tastiness of durian is felt in my mouth. Indulgence!

What do you do when bad events come knocking at your door? Like opening the durian which is not ripe yet. I choose to move on. I hope that is your choice too.

What do you do when you feel the discomfort after you have decided to move on? Like the hurt I felt from the cut on my fingers and palm. I choose to endure. Sail through it with much faith and hope.

There is always sunshine after the rain as many has said so.

God never fails.

And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.
1 Peter 5:10 NIV

It has been A DURIAN LIFE. :)

Question mark (?)

Exam is over. *wipe sweats

And it leaves me with a lot of question marks.

I need rest!!!

*Lie flat on the bed