What is wrong here?

My thoughts are all jumbled up.

Blogging can be irritating when no sentences or even a word crosses your mind.

How about too many sentences and words is waiting to gush out from your mind. They do not know about queuing up, because they are mere sentences and words, they do not have brain to tell them to queue up. Isn't that irritating too?

*faint

Aiya.....just type la~~~

New year resolution

Out of 10 blogs I've visited, 7 of them has this 'new year resolution' post.
But my mind is like, blank?
Or, I am not committed enough to keep the resolution going? That is why I'm blank.

I procrastinate
CF work
1) I'm supposed to call to check out a few places as I'm the so called hotel liaison for coming camp. I've got the contact number with me. 2 different places. I would just have to make 2 phone calls and I can get the quotations. It is that simple!

2)I should have been reminding or a more appropriate term should be rushing the committees to get things done as we are running out of time. I stopped doing that. I thought it would be annoying if someone keep on buzzing at your ear.

Studies
2 subjects.

Audit & Assurance (F8)
We are in lecture 4 now. I revised lecture 1. Then ended up having headache and went to sleep.

Professional Accountant (P1)
We finished 1/4 of the syllabus! No revision done yet.

Studying before exam result is released is demotivating. What if after putting in so much effort to study and in the end have to drop the subject because I fail previous paper? I had enough of this!!!

My days in the month of January has been an idle one. Hmm, not 100% idle. We have a change of venue for meeting place of CF for this semester. Yea, I almost went crazy of the running here and there to hand in memo and getting it authorized. The bloody job of a secretary!!!

Ok, this is contrary to the above paragraph. I attended church lady's meeting on saturday. The topics of the night is about woman service. An aunty shared this...

It's about your attitude.
Because everything that you do, you are actually worshiping God.
You are doing it for His pleasure!
You have to get your attitude right.

Here am I complaining...
A childish act...
I got slapped!
Haiz...

It's not a good start for the year huh?

I admit that I am not strong.
I am tired.

>.<

The silent outpouring of nervousness

The silent outpouring of nervousness cannot be seen.
Because it is silent in nature.
Abstract.

Faith takes place again.
Even if it means to be last minute which I don't favor.
Can everyone agree to this?
It would be miserable if I offended people along the way without knowing it.

Sigh ...

God I pray that you will help us to be patient.
God I pray that you will help us to stay close to each other.
God I pray that you will help us to depend on you in EVERY area.

Ok, I'm talking about CF that I'm currently joining for those who are wondering what happen.

When a father talks.....

A fruitful conversation between a father and daughters.

My father was commenting a few issues on leadership.
To be more accurate, a christian leadership.
He gave a lot of real life examples.
Examples that me and sister can really really relate to.
A profound impact.

He mentioned a few phrases.

• Start with an end in mind.

Eg1: When we want to do something, make sure that there is a result from it. Or else, you achieve nothing!
Eg2: ( my example ) only pahtoh when you intend to get married. LOL

• Go straight to the point. No means no! Yes means yes! Do not go around the bush! Make it clear and right at the first time for people to understand. If you fail to do so, you will be put to blame.
• A leader will reach out to touch other people's heart, he is dependable.
  
• A leader is committed to what he does.
• A leader sacrifices.
• A leader will take the extra miles to achieve his goal.

Something has been playing over and over again in my mind. Am I a good leader when I'm in a leadership position?

Do I have those characteristics? I know I'm not perfect. I cannot. However God will make it possible. He'll open the way!

Another thing he mentioned.

• God gives you brain! Use it for His glory! So use your brain! Or else how do you answer when you come to the judgment seat of Christ?

Eg: "Lord, I forgot to use my brain."
"You forgot? What if I forget my Father's will for me to die on the cross? For if I forget, you are nothing right now."

O.o

Some fishy thing got stuck in my mind since mid of last year.
"Should I? Shouldn't I? I don't know!"
Can't reveal anything on it yet.

God, teach me to apply all those qualities.

Hello 2009!

Another challenging and interesting year awaits...

I'm still in a faith vs fear battle, in every area of my life.
Making a right decision is vital.
Do not procrastinate.

He is omnipresent though I sometimes do not feel it.
Trust in His perfect will.
His plan is good and not harmful.

DO NOT GET EMOTIONAL FOR NOTHING !!!

>.<

Erm....err...
I never really touch much on F5 and F7.
Yucks!
Because I'm right here blogging.
Ooo....
Had nightmare for the past 2 days. All the scenes from violent, bloody, gory and horror movie become alive!
Watch Jumaji? Ya, like that. Everything just popped out.
*pop*
My fellow soldier, including me are getting exhausted over this war.
Hold on people! Hold on sherene!
Just a few days more to fight this war and we are free from bondage.
Temporarily...
So at the moment, no matter how is the weather like, we have to chiong ar!!!
Everyone has changed their facebook status from bad to worst!
Eg1. Study hard hard, die hard hard!
Eg2. xxx is down, audit win liao!
and many more....
For me, I've set it as: "Sherene is in a faith vs fear battle! Who will win?"
Pek check aura is indeed arising!
We are not greedy at all. All that we want is just to pass.
Yes, just a pass will do.

A dead end I see when I study F5.
A ray of hope I see in F6, F7 and F9 if I do not study F5.
Ignore F5?
It will be a forever dead end then.
Study F5?
It shatters the hope of F6, F7 and F9.
I'm clueless in F5.
Lord, teach me!

No mood to study.
I know I should be working very hard now as exam is very near.
I've just wasted today.
It has been an idle day.
I really do not have the desire for book for the whole day.
The fire has die down.
I want to go home.
But could I ever face my family with this kind of result?
I feel what I felt during preparation for SPM.
Nothing seems to stay in my mind.
No input can be detected.
Study but knowing that the result is .....
No, I cannot afford to see the F word in my result slip anymore.
Where has my faith gone to?
Fear has overtake faith.
Father, take over!
I do not know how to help myself anymore.